After discussing what our inner “Hydes” and evils would look like and how they would act, I found it difficult to picture what mine would be and how I would act if I lived through that side of myself, as Dr. Jekyll did with Hyde. But then I realized that I actually have been living through my own inner “Hyde” by succumbing to my Senioritis. In my previous three years of high school, I hid my inner “Hyde” by being a productive, hard-working, student, much like Jekyll hid his Hyde most of his life by being a successful, socially acceptable man. But now, as graduation nears, I have let my inner “Hyde” come through by slacking off on my school work. Much like Jekyll and Hyde, I enjoy slacking off on school work at the time that I am doing it, but once I face the consequences of procrastinating or studying less than I should, I feel the guilt of allowing my inner “Hyde” take over myself. Also much like Jekyll and Hyde, when I first indulged in the prospects of Senioritis, it was easy to go back to my studious ways soon after. But when I started to slack off more and more, it became harder and harder to go back to the good student I once was. I find this to be extremely dismaying, as I want to go back to the productive, hard working student that I once was. I believe it is part of human nature, though, to get oneself back to their past self once they have indulged in “evils”, especially if those evils have instant gratification, like not having to do homework as a result of indulging in Senioritis.
My goal is to work my way back to the good student I once was, even though that wasn’t possible for Dr. Jekyll and he permanently became Mr. Hyde. I believe it is possible, even though it may be hard.
